(2018-02-04) Regrets

If tomorrow I shall die, I believe I will leave with a lot of regrets.
How I wish I can turn back the clock and go back to the time when I was still ‘free’ to do things I can do.

I regretted that I choose to work on something I am interested but totally not talented in.
I regretted that I did not stand film in breastfeeding my greedy girl and lost the chance of bonding.
I regretted that I did not stand film to speak against the elderly on things that I totally don’t believe in.
I regretted that I did not spend my ‘free time’ wisely.
I regretted that I spend my MC days working instead of resting.
I regretted that I spend my after office hours working instead of telling stories to LO and make her sleep.
I regretted that I did not groom up myself more.
I regretted that work eat in a big part of my life but I am not living the life I want.

May I spent more time with my loves when I decide to move out of my comfort zone.
May I spent my time more wisely when I finally got them back.
May I be a better person, a better wife, a better mother, a better sister and a better daughter.
May I love the world even if they do not love me as much.

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